Thoughts
To put it succinctly, I am at the point in my life where I have THE MOST freedom and control over my life. There is very little about my
life that I cannot change and there is very little about my life that I have thought to change which I have not changed. My life and my ideal imagined version of my life are very similar in a large number of material facets.
But I'm still unhappy. And I don't have any other ideas for what to change.
So I think that's where my feeling of hopelessness comes from. I can imagine a lot that that's different from this, but it's hard to imagine much better.