Thoughts
I'm just worried that they're going to break me. That they're going to convince me that it's impossible to write good code and that I
shouldn't have any passion or initiative. And they already have, in a way. I'm now angry. And it's a lot harder to be optimistic if you're angry. I can still imagine a better future, and I do, but it's a lot harder now for me to show that to someone since I'm angry at them for not supporting me. And they really won't support me if I can't make them see the future that I'm envisioning.