Thoughts
I ran out of hope (important) (I never had much in the first place) (now it’s all gone). There is rational reason for hope (if things got
worse they can get better) (hope is important for life (very important) (my hope is all gone) (I’ve run out)) (God is good and makes things work for the goodness of those who serve him), therefore I must not have any rationality (rationality is good) (maybe shouldn’t haven’t been important to me but was) (had based my entire moral system upon rationality). If I can’t be internally rationally consistent I don’t know how to be good (being good is important). I am now evil (opposite of evil) (not good) (bad) (possibly very bad) (not rational (being rational is good)).